To some bipolar manic behavior is bizarre. But to the one undergoing the experience, it
is not bizarre at all; it is merely the consequential celebration arising from the
final death of self-denial. When
bipolar, all wishes, hopes, and dreams are brought to realization. The self is fully and totally affirmed. The repressed self, the repressed private
dreams and ambitions become actualized. The
mind steps in and removes all difficulties and hindrances presented by the old
reality. The belief in the new reality
is total and transformative. The great
energy provided by mania is generated from the joy of deepest yearnings being fully
realized. The actualized dreams can be the
assurance of attaining worldly position or they can be dreams of having an intimate
relationship with the Eternal. One
projects self totally upon the world, and as a screen it reflects back to the self
the self-image projected. Thus, there is
an exponential effect, as stimuli emanate from both self and screen. The reinforcements
are escalating, expanding, and universal. One operates in a tailored world—in a
perfect world of one’s own choosing. I
look upon the bipolar person with pity and envy. With pity because self-denial has finally
come to this tragic pass, and envy because the experience of total fulfillment
is one glorious trip.
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