I have learned that I cannot be the judge of my success or failures. What I see as a failure, God might see as a success; and what I see as a shinning success, God might see as a failure. The final standard for me involves the quest to do the best I can given my earnest searching for the discernment of God's will. As my daddy said, that is really all any mortal can ask. I am severely limited by my perception--so what I should do and the extent that I should do it is less than always precise or clear. I am called to lean upon the leadings of the Spirit and move forward sometimes within a context of vast ambiguity. Fast forwarding to my day of death, the question to be asked is "Did I maintain integrity given my perception of the righteous course set before me?" An auxiliary question is "Did I seek to hone my perception to the best of my ability given my understanding of how that should be achieved?" To the extent that I can answer these questions with positive assurance, I shall remain content.
Print Page
